Hump Day

Phew, we're over the hump of our first week of work and daycare! The first day wasn't so bad - leaving was fine for me, since Ben does the dropoff. I thought it would be really hard, but it just... wasn't. I did really worry about Annie during the day, especially on Monday - I was mostly concerned about her sleeping, since she's gotten a lot better with the bottle. Annie has done okay each day - but it always seems like she's a bit traumatized when we get her, especially today. Sue said she had a "bad afternoon" and kind of joked about wanting to give her away. Har har har. Not funny. Only I can joke about that!! She has napped better each day though, but afternoons have been a little rough, which is pretty consistent with what she's like at home. She's eaten just fine too - her first 2 bottles she eats all (I've been doing 4oz each, and I'm going to up her first 2 to 5oz tomorrow to see if she takes that) and the 3rd she is more so-so with. Apparently today she was rooting around for the boob on Sue, so hopefully she figures out the difference soon! I think she'll adjust ok, I was fully expecting this week to be pretty rough for her! When we get home each day, she just CRASHES immediately, just for a catnap, but it's almost funny how exhausted she seems.

Before I left on Monday

The past 2 nights she's still slept great all night so hopefully that continues. I find myself listening to her noises more and watching the clock when I think she might be waking up to think of how the "schedule" might go then. I definitely need to get over that!! I've hit a wall of exhaustion each day at about 2pm, not due to Annie of course - just because I suck at sleeping :) Hopefully it gets better soon.

As I suspected it would, work feels like a break. I really am liking being back - it's nice to have something that I know how to do well, and that is predictable :) It's also quite quiet at work - not like Annie is ALWAYS crying, but I'm kind of always tensed for it, and I don't need to do that at work. It's very weird to not think about Annie all the time - I almost feel guilty when I realize I haven't really thought about her in a bit. As the day goes on, I definitely miss her and I'm always excited to see her at daycare. It now is clear that she does recognize us, because she'll calm down in our arms when we get her - I love that!

So far so good with pumping - I am pumping more than Annie is eating, and I've kept up my morning pump. I think I was the first one to reserve my floor's pumping room, so I got the prime times :) It takes me about 20 minutes from when I leave my desk to when I get back, which isn't bad. Hopefully my supply keeps up!

Anyway, I'm glad the transition back to work wasn't too bad yet - I just am hoping Annie at some point starts to enjoy daycare!